One thing have come to realize is that not every one that is close to you appreciate you , people that smile at you , talk to you , laugh with you , play with you appreciate you is not about blaming yourself for bringing them into your life , is just that shit happens and you have got to move on , no matter the circumstances , push ahead.Surround yourself with people that embrace you for your natural self , they know the real you , they know your flaws , there is no need to pretend , they are right there always , you are in their thought , they are proud of you , they love your color without being a racist.
They don't need to say they do their actions is a definition of appreciation.